Incomplete emotional cycles, belief systems and coping mechanisms resulted in a defensive, hard, and aggressive young woman. Underneath this hard exterior was a little girl who felt alone, scared, and unworthy.

I chose relationships with men who were emotionally unavailable, resisted commitment and lacked depth of intimacy. I felt starved for tender masculine attention and would seek to meet this need through exploitation of my own body in the form of promiscuity and hyper sexualization, because this is what I had internalized that they most deeply desired.  When this approach seemed to fail, I desperately searched for security and meaning in life. I swung to the opposite side of the spectrum and became a fully covering Muslim woman. For many years I used my clothing as a physical barrier from a world where I felt unsafe to be seen.

Eventually, becoming a Mother thrust me into the deepest, purest, and most unfettered love that I had ever experienced. A complete state of bliss where I found the depth of love and connection I yearned for returned by this perfect, pure, innocent little being. Along with this love came the clearest and most potent mirror for my own inner child’s pain. My children began to innocently touch the rage and anger I had buried so deeply in my own shadows. It broke me to see the pain my own traumas were inflicting on my sweet girls.

In a series of initiations, I began removing my armor. First, using psych-k and kundalini practices where the golden thread of sacred union lit up for me in the form of exploration in masculine and feminine energies.

Next, I began to touch upon the tender spaces of my heart. Here this golden thread took on new depth and richness as I began to meet the archetypes of sacred union, and dance with goddesses and elemental dragons of creation.

My next initiation was a deep dive into the underworld, midwifing my own rebirth and anchoring deep into the wisdom, softness, and grounded fierceness in my womb. A new inner-standing arose around the archetypes and Embodied Sacred Union was born.

Throughout this time I have apprenticed under amazing mentors and received certifications in Reiki, Embodiment Coaching, Womb Shamanism, and Biomancy – courting of the elemental world to claim the magic coded within our bodies.

My most recent initiations in sacred relationship have begun to touch upon ever deeper wisdoms, and open me even more fully into the gifts and magic of union.

In the weaving of these pieces and parts of my life, I have birthed Alchemy of Sacred Union – a cauldron in which to alchemize fragmented lives back into union of body, mind, soul, and the elemental world to experience a new depth in clarity of self and surrendering to union – anchoring a new frequency of love on the planet to ripple out into the world.